Six years. It took that long to get over my wife's death. Suicide not only kills the victim but it leaves human wreckage behind.
At the time I worked as a church pastor. In that role I dealt with death often. So, with the proper support I hoped to manage a quick personal recovery.
However, to compound matters, I lost my job. You see, the good people of my congregation never found the ability to deal with the suicide of a pastor's wife, and consequently lost the ability to deal realistically with me as their pastor any longer.